Right now
I prefer not to read or speak
I want to retreat
Into my own world
My mind is a playground
In which I permanently
Belong
Lost in a swarm
Various directions
I'm torn
Not knowing
Which way to go
Thinking
Keeps me afloat
Thoughts I cannot let go
Reappearing in time
Decipher
Previous chapters in my life
When I once struggled
Where I strived
Gliding effortlessly
Unconfined
This is I
Everything that makes up
Who I am
Words.... paper
Or typed on a computer with my hands
I am the ocean
My minds
Engulfed with sand
Every particle of thought
Understood
Or awaiting to be sought
Naught I disregard
The presence of water
Upon my land
The essence of my being
I am a pen....
Unsure how
I came to this conclusion
Parts of myself
I no longer lose when
My reaction is out of control
I now have the ability to look back
And break all previous molds
No longer having a goal
Freely
I leg go
Time has shown
Reflections upon
What was once damned
The essence of my being
I Close my eyes
And Count to 10.....