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This is my side of the story to our love me and his that was never really finished
I'm not saying my side is true but its my point of view on how we diminished

Dear boy,
Who came in my life so fast to the point where I couldn't even gather the feelings for you, I wanted all of you to myself but you were in a stage where every girl wanted your body, playing these girl was your hobby so I didn't sleep in your room, I just sat in the lobby, hoping and waiting that I would be somebody, more than a title more than a name, the girl you thought about but would drive you insane, the one you wanted to make love to your heart, not to your senseless brain, I was a naïve girl just coming out of a mistake ,with another guy that all he did was play, never physically saw because of you he stayed away!
But you were protecting from a player when in actuality you were to, but naïve I was, so naïve I would do, the first time with anyone I may have cheated on someone else, because that point you were mine and I wasn't yours, but the feelings were strong the feelings we could avoid, but after wee made love, you ran away like a boy and did another girl! JEEZ was a I freaking toy?
But as time moved on and I sat in this lobby and we eneded havin a fairy tale like nobody could ever imagine, the time went on and our hearts began in an attachment.
But then the phone call I got when you told me about another girl that she was the one you were thinking  about and she was your world, and the question that popped up was what did I do wrong? I mean we fought a lot but the love was still strong!?
I mean I called you when my life was at its short and at its long you were my high and you were my low , But you tell me that another girl is taking your heart over control?! But yet you still stayed and the love was getting grey and inconsistent and the distance began to come into play!
We drift we fell into the ground into the fiery hell,
But we tried and we held on, and we held to point where I began to mature and I found another boy not a man but a boy who just wanted sex, and I gave it to him, because hearing and think about YOU was a vex
Because I grew up around a drugged out father and messed up step dad, and my mom was there but for some reason idk she was always mad, my life wasnt great it was sure ass hell bad, but you came into my life and crashed and I got stuck with you thinking you were my way out and you were but eventually I began to cloud, as in float away because I was scared of commitment you are my longest friend and the most consistent, I lost my way baby I made some mistakes because you weren't in it!
And even though now time has changed us both, I still love you and deep down I still have hope, something is keeping us on this rugged rope.
And I may not act like I care but in reality I do, I may not act like you are the person I love, but I do, I do!
So we are friends now but I rather not share the feelings I have for you, but you will never know why, but will I ever know too?
-kris Harbor