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i'm far from perfect

this i know

but that doesnt mean that i should suffer

at least

not this much

i'm living in hell

the devil's world this i know

but i am still above it

at least

i try to be



condemned



ashamed



livid



in turmoil



is my heart

but i go on living

trying to make the best of it

but

to no avail

my judgements of myself comes

into question

with the amount of pain

that i endure



unsure



uncertain



insecure



self conscious



dysphoria seeps into my brain

cause im wondering

what did i do to deserve this.....?















it never ceases to amaze me

my neverending strength

in this life

thirty two years

of strife

thirty years of stress

thirty two years of nothing but absolute pain



and i'm still here

i still want to be here

there has to be something else than this



there has to be



because after pain



                       there is joy....