it's all in my head
so they say
but
I can't get in there
it is getting ahead of me
speeding
without me
conjuring up things that I only
dream of
trying so hard to
keep it together
but
only on the outside
while
within suffers quietly
.....the scars
go away
quickly
without a trace
leaving me a place to retreat
giving me a face to the pain
I am in
heart shattered
doesn't matter
'cause no one tries to understand
why I cry
......battles.....
beating myself up for the
way I can't stop
being
medications failing to prevent me
from insanity
building up inside my veins
they say it's all in my head
but
it's just me
it's just who I am
though it doesn't define me
it just completes me