my hands quiver as i postition myself
for this moment
i didnt want this
i refused to let it come to this
yet
here i am
writing about
ultimately
losing you
i tried to stop it
though
i knew it was a losing battle
as they all are
but
i am relentless
teardrops fall onto my fingers
as
i remember how you
kissed me
held me
talked about a future with me
i wipe them away
it hurts to know
that i didnt leave an impact on you at all
that
everything we shared meant
absolutely nothing
to
you
when it was everything to me
but
i
see
we are much too different
another teardrop falls
and i stare at it
unable to write the words
i miss you
i .....
i.....
still ....
love you
regardless of your inability to give a shit
im struggling
a bit
with this
with me
without you
but
im guessing i will get through it
i guess i will get through it
....................................
as soon as my hands cant take any more tears