it happens
negativity
surrounds me
and
I'm drowning again
in yet
another pool of self-doubt
trying my best
not to fall through the
trap of lonliness
yet
it somehow finds me
under the rock
of
hopelessness
as I scream
scratch
claw
my way out
it sees me
unhappiness
engulfs me as I realize
nothing gets better
continuously shying away
from life
love
it always happens
the way
I dream it
the river of lost hope
envelops me
until I am left breathless