not knowing the possibility of
things
the future
the time going on without me
feeling lonely
my anxiety
my depression
my diagnosis
my insanity
being in love
with
danger
my inabilty to make
the right decisions
my anger
my resentment
this world
this president
my insomnia
my dreams
my failures
my upbringing
my family's inability to love me
my inability to love
dishonesty
disloyalty
not knowing when I am
going to wake up dead
not wanting to wake up
at all
not making my son proud
not making myself proud
unhappiness
unhappiness
unhappiness
my instability
my emotional pain
my mental pain
my physical pain
never wanting to see the light
success
me
you