almost lover

I am trying to forget you

but you are

          always here

in my mind

and I know for a fact that

you

    dont care

it boggles me

the disregard you have

about what we

had

or didnt have

it never occurs to you

                      that

I am filled with

                             hurt

                               pain

                                  anger

I was just another notch on your belt

I guess

           you see

I dont even know how

you feel

I dont know even know

if this thing was even real



                     to you

and yet

my mind wanders to the songs

that reminds me

a face in the crowd that

resembles you

             and I want to scream

I want to shout

but

I

dont



no, I wont



stooping down to that level isn't me

but it is ....







                 I am trying so hard not to think about you

but your invasion of my space

the visions of your face

next to mine



vivid

fluid

constant



I want to hate you

I want to forget you

I want to know what happened between us

yet

                  nothing



   (and you're still on my mind)



and you could care less about me .......

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