looking at myself in the mirror
I realize
just what I am
nothing
a waste of space
of breath
thoughts rambling around my
head
yelling that I will
never amount to
anything
and
looking at myself now
I realize
just what I am
a piece of
shit
wanting nothing but
happiness
contentment
not knowing how to
grab it
holding on to it
as the voices
in my head continue to
spew out insults
as I look at myself in
the mirror
I close my eyes
I can't look anymore
I can't feel anymore
I realize
that this is it
that this is my life
that it is such a dissapointment
to me
as I am to myself