It’s been months
And you still seem to get the best of me.
You’ve already taken my sleep patterns
And bested them with misery.
Late nights awake,
Wondering about your tongue, a snake
Whispering sweet nothings about something
That has everything to do with anything.
And I am still wondering what I did to deserve it.
You choked me in my sleep with selfish good times
On the screen of other women,
Different states, sharing what was mine.
It was never really mine.
All of the money I didn’t have
Went into what you needed to have
To be better than that
But worse that this.
You bled me dry of everything and
Continue to scrape at the bones with long nails
Sharpened to a fine point
With the blade you shoved into my back
Months ago.
I remember the nights you’d whisper
“I love you so much”
But that was code for “take care of me.”
And I fell for the sentiments,
Because it complimented my resentment.
No one had been content with my affection.
I wanted to love so badly that
I let this cliche contemporary relationship
Slip through the dip in my hip
Drip, Drip, Drip
Like liquid, your lies slide off my body
And I am clean from the dark
Because a serpent tongue like yours
Has cut deep enough.
I am done falling apart.