your eyes were scorched with gold
life was easy
when i was 15 i knew
it was you
and me, for ever
you barely spoke and when your words came they were awkward
staring up out from under your boys haircut you
looked sexy
when i was 15 i
wanted your body and
no one elses
for ever
laying in bed with you in the light of morning
was heaven without doubt without fear about bodies being
less than soul or the
inevitableness of love ending or how
long
life
is
when you really think about it
or how language can never
speak
to who
we really are
you see
when i was
15
i could say your name
without echoes
of pain without echoes
of a past lovers name without
echoes
of
myself
i understood the world
and now
i understand silence
i love the best that i can
trying, to listen
i ache more for silence than for
skin, not your skin,
i fell out of love
with you so soon
after i was 15