I cut me open to cut me down
And on my face is my last frown
I hate my ways and hate my mind
Cause all it seems to find
Is pain and grief and agony
It rules over me with its tyranny
Of broken promises and hopelessness
I just long for the caress
Of love in MY heart and in my soul
Because right now my heart is a hole
Of selfish pain and self-deceit
I wish I could go back in time and not repeat
The stupid mistakes I made back then
I close my eyes and count to ten
open my eyes and realize
That I can't change my past of lies
And I want to change but I know I can't
And so in my poems I bitch and rant
About myself, and my "fucked up" life
That I sincerely wish to end this night
And erase my past, erase myself
From all the minds of all I love
But it،¦s not going to happen so fuck it all
Into this pit I begin to fall
Down I go with no hopes or dreams
And through the darkness my fading screams
Awaken you to my hopeless plight
But your too late I died last night