this relationship I love yet hate
it leads me to this bloody fate
of self taught hurt and pain self caused
its like life searched and then paused
on the most hurtful moments and painful times
I hate my self and I hate my rhymes
I hate the way I cant do anything right
I only seem to hurt and fight
with all the people I hold dear
and now you've thrust the sharpened spear
right through my heart and through my will
to live and now ill slowly kill
myself and end this whole ordeal
ill cry the last tears of blood and slowly then ill start to feel
peace of mind and peace of heart like I have never known before
ill take the knife and slice a bit more
ill cut so deep that ill die right fast
and on this blade will lie my last
breath of air and tears of pain
ill be alone at last again