You should be going to a event to enjoy and hoping not to find your past. Being by yourself out in the night could be good and should but, life has away to repeat your past even though you try not to live what was in the past.Your past see you yet you don't see them at this event. The past comes and takes you away to a place of the unknown surrounding that makes your heart pounding.Your feeling are saying that this is no good and should be understood but you just can't say NO because your past won't let you go. Do to its your past that is holding you down. So as you deal with your past with no say no words to speak, you wounder in your mind why does your past come to haunt you and holded you down to the ground. Life has away to repeat its self even though you don't ask for it as a kid and as a adult.