My feet were muddy, hands were dirty,
And they left me out on the rain.
They said I will always be in their hearts,
But I don’t feel so- I can never understand their love.
Out on the cold I was alone.
Confused, weakened, devastated.
I called each of their names and they just smiled.
It hurts and I can never understand their love.
The rain suddenly turned into a storm.
I had nowhere to go, I remembered You.
I prayed hard in tears hoping that You’d listen,
Silence- I can never understand Your love.
And the storm went on, I am out on the cold.
The hardened mud on my feet melted and disappeared.
Blood and dirt from my hands swept away.
My whole body drenched… and cleansed.
The storm is over.
As I look at the clearing sky,
Last raindrops fall on my face,
Washing away the tears from my eyes.
Cool breeze begins to blow.
Shivers down my spine.
Ice cold yet so comforting,
For this new person, redirected soul.
I could dance with glee in praise,
I could sing out loud for Your glory.
I was lost and You found me.
I was caged and You freed me.
I could walk through the coming storms,
Still with fear but with hope.
I was down and You believed in me.
I was restless and You gave me peace.
And yes, I can never understand Your love.
I don’t think I ever will.
Knowing that You love me is enough.
Feeling that You love me is even better.
Thank You Lord for leaving me out on the cold.