+ 1ST POEMS: The Fiftieth Anniversary Of Monday, October Thirteenth, Nineteen Seventy-Five; Sonnet With Envoi

I thank YOU, LORD, for the half century

of ambition to write a bit of Poetry:

all of five decades, all those years since then,

although it seems like just yesterday.

I told my parents at the evening meal

and shocked prejudice was all they had to say:

that it led to Homosexuality,

political subversion, with long hair,

faded, bell-bottom jeans and dirty bare

feet (and the very thought made their blood congeal;

I dared not tell them that one of the five

conditions was already present to thrive).

The rest of dinner passed in awkward silence---

the percolation of their verbal violence.


ENVOI:


Earlier, I prayed that my soul should align

with the hundred forty-third psalm's verse nine.*

The desire was entirely, wholly mine

and the parents, as usual, fearful with dread

 that their son might become a "wayward homo who loves men."

But God's own voice had once directed me

to step outside, to His stars: me . . . (soon to be,

first Starwatcher, then evolved to Starward-Led).

Author's Notes/Comments: 

In the LXX numbering.


The phrase "loves men" was given me by Swedening, in Autumn, 1977, when I should have loved him well and fervently, but, due to fear of the homophobes on campus, I failed miserably and cravenly to love him.

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