I don't know if you know what it's like to feel truly completely hopeless. To just surrender all hope that maybe you'll recover from something or at least learn how to deal with it. To just throw your hands up and say you don't even want to bother trying anymore. To just accept the fact that nothing's destined to improve. Even that nothing's destined to do anything and everything that happens just happens, and there's no reason or fate or better meaning, its just a THING that happens to you, and you have to grow up and see that, and stop waiting for magic to happen and change it.
But if you don't know what that feels like, it's like someone picked you up and took you off planet earth and just suspended you in the middle of a galaxy millions of light years away, and you can't breathe and no matter how much you flail your arms around you can't move anywhere.