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Unrequited love
I practically knew you my whole life. I knew your wants, your desires, your dreams. You told me EVERYTHING about your life and kept it a secret to everybody else. You had no idea how special that made me feel.
You had a tough life, I know. I was there when your parents fought, and you had no one to turn to. My parents fought too, so I knew what it felt like to be very much alone. But you weren't, because you had my shoulder to cry on. Again you had no idea how special that made me feel.
Middle school was my adolescent years, the time where all of us try to find a place in the school world. You and I ended up with the rest of the outsiders, but you know what? Did we care, hell no! "Screw them, and their popular ways!" we said. Those were the days, and even then, when everything about me was changing, you still made me feel special.
Then there was high school, we knew we would be parted from each other. "Friends forever." we said, "No one will ever take your place." we said. No one ever did take your place. That was how special you were to me.
Freshman year was tough, I had a boyfriend who didn't appreciate me, and I remember how you threatend to beat him up for me. I laughed, you always knew how to make me smile. Then you had a girlfriend, who treated you like trash, sayin crap behind your back. I'm glad you broke up with her, she wasn't right for you anyway... Not that I could tell you that, 'cause hey, it was your life anyway. It was the end of freshman year, I began to realize. I think...I was falling you....
Sophmore year was soooo much better. I spent my lunches with now, we had three classes with each other. I thought about what I had realized last year, and made it my goal to get you to be mine. I loved you, I hated to see you hurt, I cried when you began to cut yourself to make a statement to your dad. Statement or not, I didn't want to lose you.
Every night at home, I'd sneak on the computer and get on World of Warcraft just to spend time with you there. I knew your avatar, a lvl 80 Tauren warrior. I was just a lvl 35 blood elf Paladin. I sucked compared to you, especially since I've been playing longer than you. I just let your smart remarks about my characters weakness just slide. I knew you were just joking.
It was then at lunch, my best girlfriend brought up the subject of dating. She asked you, if you would give me a chance at dating. You said yes. The next day according to her, you were all excited about asking me out, since you rode the bus with her. You didn't. I waited the entire weekend, and monday you still didn't. I had to leave early the next day for the National FFA Convention, I was starting to believe you were backing out. While I was rocking out to Toby Keiths awesome preformace, I couldn't help but imagine if you were here, would you enjoy this too? My great-grandfather died two days after I arrived in Indy. When I returned to school, you knew something was wrong, and you asked me about it.
That is when I broke down in tears, for the first time in days. Right in the middle of the hallway before school, I sobbed out on how much I would miss my gandfather, how much he meant to me, and you were there. With a shoulder to cry on.
But, I found out, while I was gone. You got a girlfriend. My best girlfriend told me. I see you with her, her blonde hair, her brown eyes. What has she got, that I don't have!? She doesn't even know you. I can't even sit at the same table with you anymore. She's changing you, now you hang out with the cool crowd, when we said that crap didn't matter. Now you act as if it's your life. I don't know you anymore, but....
...You will ALWAYS be sepcial to me...
