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5 Paragraph Personal Narrative Essay...
Taking life for granted.
Have you ever had somebody try and commit suicide? Someone who tried to take their own life that you were close to? My mom almost lost a daughter.
When I was in sixth grade I got bullied a lot. I got called: fat, ugly, stupid, worthless, and dumb. People made fun of me because of the way I dressed. They made fun of me because I did not come from a family made of money. I remember one day a boy walked up to me and said “ You are worthless, fat, and you should go home and kill yourself”. As soon as he said that I broke down. Who could hate someone they barely know so bad? I hurried up and ran to the bathroom, went into the stall, and bawled my eyes out. I was miserable, hurt, and done. I finally made my decision of what had to be done.
As I waited for the school day to go past I just thought of plenty of ways to end my suffer. I was just so done of being bullied, and feeling like nothing. The 2:30 bell rang, and I rushed home before my mother got off of work. I walked in the house with all this despair. I ripped paper from my notebook as tears fell. I wrote my mother a note, and I put a kiss of lipstick on it. I recorded myself making a suicidal video, and I posted it on youtube. Finally, I was done with everything. I took a razor blade, and I cut my wrist. The deeper, and deeper I went I felt relieved. I felt all the pain go away. Running to the bathroom I poured alcohol on the opened wounds, and took a bottle of pills from the medicine cabinet.
Maybe I was put on this world to be hurt is what ran through my head the whole time. Grabbing what I thought would be my last cup of soda. I opened it and swallowed 30 Ibuprofens. I am not sure what happened after that. All I know is my eyes got heavier, and heavier and I just seen darkness. I thought all my pain and suffer was gone. I thought finally I could be away from all of this hurt, and pain. The next day I woke up in my bed with my older sister beside me. I was relieved that I was alive still. “I want you to promise me you will never try this again” my sister said as tears fell down her eyes. As I seen the hurt I put her through “ I promise” I said. Not knowing if I would regret it or not, I made that promise.
Now that I am older I have looked passed the past. I am now really close friends with the boy who told me to kill myself. It took all of me to forgive him but I did. My past made me the strong,individual young lady I am today. Looking back on that day I would not change a single thing that happened. I say that because I learned from it, and now I help prevent suicide in everybody surrounding me. So far, I have stopped three people from committing suicide. One was my ex-boyfriend, another was my best friend, and the third one was a random kid I did not know. I deleted the suicide video from youtube, but still have the letter/poem that I wrote.
Losing somebody close to you due to suicide is never easy. You never know what the person sitting right next to you is going through. Never bully someone just from where they come from. Surroundings does not make a person. The heart makes the character of a character.
