if i could forget you
i'd be in much better shape
i think
i'd feel much better about myself
i have one
willing to give it all
but i won't take it
i can't
til i get that feeling
that feeling of forever in me
and forever
is just too long
right now
when my mind will stay
on nothing solid
my mind only on things fleeting
only on things fickle
unreliable
afraid
my mind on things moving forward without looking back
at what once was
i knew i'd never be able to change you
and then
i never wanted to
and now....
i want to go back
hoping to find
what may have never
been there
at all