i keep waiting
for some grand gesture
that doesn't really even need to be grand
it could be so ordinary and everyday
that no one else would recognize it
but me
i wish i could stop
looking for you
in every person
in every car
that passes
i'm sure you didn't leave your life behind
to seek me out
i desperately want to be someone
that you miss enough to show me by your actions
i want so many things from you
your time
attention
a sorry
that i'll never get