men came and told people about God
women carried the men
God came
nobody believed
later people tried to understand
upon their understanding they built some belief
belief makes us feel better about our self
but what do we believe
we believe that we will die whatever death suits us most
so that we can exist in a state oblivious to the cost
is there life without sin?
believe
i just want a shred of you to accept that I was loving the world the only way I could find
and that it seemed disgusting and vulgar to you
but I was there watching you when those 5 men gathered around
and you excitedly hopped into the bed ready to pleasure them all
i never said a word until now
and really it was about the fact that I could just sit there rolling that joint for 15 minutes
trying to figure out what to do next
i walked outside
thank god an excuse not to have to join in the sodomy or whatever came next
i dunno what you think about me shoving a toy in my ass
it must be pretty gross
but it started with me making a fire like a little indian
and why did I even need to love a world that never cared about me personally
at least they didn't try to kill me this time
at least they didn't kick me when i was laying on the ground unconscious
boys just being boys right
hey i am done getting head from this girl
why don't you let her suck yours too?
i dunno man people are weird...
they call me weird
but they are really weird
and they are all just mad because i didn't join the affair willingly
until the queen of the damned came and lured me into her bed
innocence was removed? or was it
she was satisfied with how things played out
but i wasn't
and now all I can think about is what will happen next
i don't go searching for anything
but somehow there is always a thread to tear at
and a cord to pull
and if you pull it what happens next
some angry horde comes blaming you for all the problems