I hid myself from you
When I would see
You with her.
My hands would tremble
And get cold;
So cold I could not bend my fingers
Until I could feel
Your comforting hand
Touch them.
I would run away from you,
But I got nowhere.
The only place
My feet led me
Is to deep sadness,
I would walk the smoky paths
With my eyes
On the muddy ground,
Never looking up
To the black
Starry sky,
Never smiling
Unless
I saw you
Smile back at me.
Why do I feel so different now
That I have you back?
I never stopped
Running
On that broken path,
My heart
Swollen and
Broken still,
Away from all known life
Shivering in the icy boundaries
That separate
Me from You.
Justine Marie Zingg
9/15/03