i keep thinking of you entering this room and taking the pain away. sometimes i think you are here and wait for you to come in and jump on the bed and hug me tight and for me to laugh like i used to.
I tell myself I'm okay wraped up in netting like a very dead bride. i tell myself okay when it take me an hour and a half to eat my tea. i tell myself not okay when i start wearing my panties on my head and silk scarfs binding my breasts.