Manicure

I paint my nails pink

but it just doesnt seem right

so I paint them purple

but I really mean black

And thats just tonight



I wish I didn't cut them

hack them this short

somehow I was trying to dig

Into me to see the answers



I know I am so brittle sometimes

I know your trying to protect me

Sometimes I see in you

All my fantasies

But I'm so weak

And you know I'm going to slip



Its unbidden these feelings

All you can do is advice me

Though you'd like to guide me



Somehow. Somewhere.

Inside I'm calling out your name

All the time begging for mercy

maybe help

and all you can do is watch me drown

I wont call your name

Because I'm stubborn

yet selfless



I paint my nails purple

All the while not trying to think of you

Because I need black

and you know it

I don't know how much I can take

What is in the protection?

It just doesn't seem right

I know it, maybe you know it

But it goes noe further

A path with no end



I'll buy some black tomorrow

To see how you'll react

To see if you'll save me

Or shak eyour head and turn

Because I didn't listen

Or because your on a teether?

Maybe not

I won't buy black

It'll change things

Only for the worse



Shit. I'm a idiot.

These words I say make no sense

Im only imagining

These fumes are going to my head

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I would kill myself before giving away the meaning

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