I paint my nails pink
but it just doesnt seem right
so I paint them purple
but I really mean black
And thats just tonight
I wish I didn't cut them
hack them this short
somehow I was trying to dig
Into me to see the answers
I know I am so brittle sometimes
I know your trying to protect me
Sometimes I see in you
All my fantasies
But I'm so weak
And you know I'm going to slip
Its unbidden these feelings
All you can do is advice me
Though you'd like to guide me
Somehow. Somewhere.
Inside I'm calling out your name
All the time begging for mercy
maybe help
and all you can do is watch me drown
I wont call your name
Because I'm stubborn
yet selfless
I paint my nails purple
All the while not trying to think of you
Because I need black
and you know it
I don't know how much I can take
What is in the protection?
It just doesn't seem right
I know it, maybe you know it
But it goes noe further
A path with no end
I'll buy some black tomorrow
To see how you'll react
To see if you'll save me
Or shak eyour head and turn
Because I didn't listen
Or because your on a teether?
Maybe not
I won't buy black
It'll change things
Only for the worse
Shit. I'm a idiot.
These words I say make no sense
Im only imagining
These fumes are going to my head