What can I say to explain the feelings I posses. There is truth to everything you are saying. I know it is killing you that I am this way. A calming peace is hard to find. It is no easy task to live with my past. The history I hold inside had broken me more than once. Could it be that I wasn't allowed to live the way I needed to? Could it be that I say things just to clear my head? Could it be that I am only being who I was meant to be? Could it be that I have no other way to express who I am?