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Pain.
schizophrenic and scared.
crying and alone.
beating myself senseless trying to understand where it comes from.
this pain and hurt.
this pinching and stabbing.
the torturous throbbing inside my skull.
I want to cry out for something to end it.
to make it all go away.
i know it wont.
i know its here to stay.
to break me to pieces and ruin my life.
I know what i need.
I know who it is.
the one who can make it better for me
the one who can quiet the voices.
the one who can crawl inside of me.
Schizophrenic rambling.
minute after minute.
hour after hour.
day after day.
week after week.
month after month.
year after wretched year.
I cant win this war within myself alone.
I cant stop it all without her.
she makes it all better.
so why do i make everything harder on her.
foul and loathesome.
mean and ignorant.
angry and vengeful.
words that describe the wretch i am.
