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i'm failing

i'm falling

life is losing its point

love is starting to betray me

i dont want to fail or fall

i dont want to lose it all

i dont want to push you away

i know i'm mean

ignorant

stupid

pointless

i cant paint my pains

i cant write my wrongs

i cant sculpt my imperfection

i see those eyes

and they make me glow

happy

proud

but i hurt you

like its ok to do

everyday a new barage of insults

and bad words

stupid thoughts

and mean feelings

i'd kill myself for you

but i already kill you

i never do what i promise

i never say the things i should

i'm a stupid, sad, rejected loss

you could do much better than me

you could find someone who treats you the way you should be treated

you dont need me and my bullshit

you dont need me and my stupid words

you dont need me and my hurtful rambling

i will only bring you down

more than i already have

i'm in pain

physical

mental

emotional

i dont blame you for any of it

i blame myself because

i am not everything i built myself up as

i'm not worth the tears

or the pain

or the frowns

or the heartbreak

i dont do anything better

than destroy you and your pride

i will hate myself forever.

I need you

i crave you

i will change,

i will be a better person

on this i promise

to my fathers grave

i promise

i will be better