Sick to my mind with worry
Afraid that soon my secret will get out
Cannot hold it in much longer
At times I just want to scream and shout
Inside I am screaming
I think I need help
Am I dying?
I cannot talk,
Afraid that I will slip up
If my secret gets out, I will be sent away
I cannot handle going to a place for crazy people
Like I have seen in all the movies,
I cannot deal with no privacy
but I got to get out of here
Feeling like I am trapped
Somedays it is just too hard to get out of bed
Takes too much effort to wake up
Cannot stand remembering all that I once held onto
Too painful to let it all go
So down this long, hard road I continue to go