I've held my breath
All my life
Waiting for someone to
Reach in
And rescue me
From these
Overpowering currents
Pulling me under.
I've submerged
Myself
In my own insufficiency
All my insecurities
Converge,
On the verge
Of drowning,
Because no matter what I do
It won't be good enough.
Engulfed
In my vain complacency
Thinking this vast ocean
Could contain
All my worry and hurt,
Buried beneath sands of
My wavering doubts.
It's hard to say if
I was trying to
Camouflage or disappear.
It was only when I
Hit rock bottom
That I discovered
My lifeboat
Was waiting
For me all along.
All I had
To do was swim
Towards the
Surface.