It's startling what you can miss when you turn away for just a moment. You could miss your whole life. Looking back is hopeless because you can’t change the past. That’s the one thing about “hope”. It’s a forward look; the past can only be viewed with regret.
Upon having had your life of mediocrity flash before your eyes, all you can do now is wish you had a time machine that took you back so you could rewrite history. If only.
Life is filled with “if only”s, isn’t it? If only our crush would reciprocate our affections. If only we could find a job that satisfies our need for stability and excitement. If only we could choose our family. If only life was perfect and every single circumstance aligned to our estimations, right? It could never be that way because even our logic is flawed.
But how we blame our situation on outside forces. We are not marionettes, after all. We control our own destinies. Where one step in one direction can mean the difference between what is and what could have been.
Sometimes I feel like I’m living in an alternate universe. But I think we tend to be so focused on this tiny space in time we occupy and miss all the eons before and after us. Why should we expect the world to revolve around us? We are just here for barely a heartbeat.
All you can hope for—there’s that word again—is that someday someone you knew could look up to the stars and say, “Do you remember her? She made everyone’s life a little brighter.”