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AFTERNOON
I browse thru a copy of Dead Relix and read about the Grateful Dead. I wander thru my collection of baseball cards looking for valuable ones. I watched my wrestling to see for any championship changes. I listen to tapes. I play “Stand Up” by Jethro Tull and “Aja” by Steely Dan. It creates some interesting sounds and I just listen. I play games with my cards pretending that I’m a major league superstar. I lead the league in homeruns and RBS’s.
Then I go out to sneak a piece of cake and a couple strawberries. Peter Gabriel settles in the stereo and I think of my poetic destiny; if I’ll ever achieve; if I’m even good enough to qualify.
I make plans for the next Dead tour. I fantasize about being a stud. I think of girls I’d like to fuck. My fantasies melt with my insecurity. I just continue to dream and drift thru the thoughts in my head. One day it’ll all make sense.
Could it ever be true? I fantasize about being a rock star and getting laid and getting published. I dream of going on tour again but the plans aren’t always well constructed. What should I say to her? How do I learn to be a great guitarist? It’s all so confusing but the issue of Relix has a song list for the tour.
I read it and weep. I only went to 3 of the shows. It’s still a boost as I marvel at my favorite bunch of old men. I laugh as I think of society and its reaction to us. We’re living in the past. Isn’t that a song by Jethro Tull? Or maybe the Chocolate Watchband? I’m sure I heard that song before.
I guess I’ll just let the day roll along. I guess I could make a phone call and talk about the concert last night that I didn’t even go to. I could always lie and say I went. No one would know the difference. We’ve all done that before. The music temporarily stops.
Alleviate the situation with a little blues. Throw on Taj Mahal and lay back. I break to take a shit and then brush my teeth. I go back and think of lies and descriptions of the Sun Ra concert last night that I didn’t go to. Yeah it was a real far out concert. I mean real far out but I would know that I missed that far out show and it would bother me. I’ve already seen Sun Ra before anyway. I guess I’ll move on and fantasize about the young ladies again. Maybe I’ll just get drunk again. That’ll pass the time. There’s 5 hours of wrestling ahead so I’m really psyched up for that. I guess it’s not so bad afterall.
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