Looking out
seeing the girl
at the third table
and thinking
“Did I sleep with her?”
Don’t remember
Oh well, it must not
have been that memorable
else I’d surely
a remembered
all the sordid details
in minute detail
but she does look
awfully familiar
maybe she dated
someone I know
or maybe she used
to work with me
She didn’t do my hair
She didn’t do my suits
Maybe she knows my sister
or something like that
I hope I did her
No, that would mean
I forgot doing her
and that would be unmanly
to forget a girl like that
or even vaguely remember
Oh God! I hate this
It’s ruining my concentration
I’ll have to put it
out of my mind
and just pretend
everything is normal
quite while I’m ahead
although this is one thing
that I am quite sure
I won’t be able to do
at least not in this lifetime
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