I love you all so much, I no some of you love me too.
But even you can't love me the way I do.
The passion, devotion, fervour, fierceness,intensity .
That I feel for you, you can't comprehend.
Where it all comes from I don't no.
Maybe it's because I never felt it.
When I was myself a child.
I no I was no where near a perfect mother.
But love I had plenty.
I am 66 and do you no what I want.
I want a mummy and daddy to love me.
To look after me .
To give me a childhood .
Things I never had.
I no I will soon be gone.
I pray that the good Lord takes me soon.
I no that some of you will not visit my grave.
Like one of you said, and you know who I mean.
When you're dead, your dead.
Thank you.
Some of you have children of your own.
And I pray that they will love you for ever.
I could not bear that any of them will feel the same way you feel for me.
Please remember me, even if it's just has that silly old woman.
I have nothing to leave you.
But that word that annoys you so.
I love you.
But I do love you with all my heart.
MUM.
Ella