Destroying Parts of Me

Just when I think I am doing fine

Thoughts of you invade me.

I was happy. I was finally moving on

And you stopped in again.

Why does this happen to me?

I have some one new, but thoughts of you keep running through my mind.

And no, I don't want you back.

I don't want you anywhere near me.

You convinced me you were the one.

The one who loved me and knew best for me.

Really, you wanted to be the only one.

I couldn't have friends and my family was the worst.

I was fat. I was dumb. I was obviously cheating on you.

Your lies overwhelmed me and became deeply engrained in my mind.

No matter how long it has been

Without you wispering those lies to me,

They still pop into my mind.

You told me I was cheating when it was really you.

Now, I have trouble trusting my own boyfriend.

You poisoned my mind and gave me doubts

No matter how hard I try and push those thoughts away,

Some how you keep coming back up,

Stealing my joy.

So, take away my happiness and all my feelings of worth for now.

But day by day,

Little by little,

I am getting stronger.

I will keep pushing you out,

Until you never come back again.

 

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