A black cloud is hovering over my head
I recognise it from a past time
When it rained the drops felt like acid burning into my skin
Except no one could see what was happening
They couldn’t see me screaming in pain
One person however could see, I don’t know what gave me away
It could have been my fake laugh
It could have been my bitter sarcasm
It could have been those treacherous tears
The ones I cried when I thought no one was looking
That person was my sunshine at least for a little while
They destroyed my cloud with their golden rays
They made my heart lighter
They took away the burdens I thought I’d always carry
But even they could not be there forever
For a while I was my own sun keeping away the dark
But my light couldn’t stay so bright on my own
The black cloud is back worse than before
This time it is a raging storm with bolts of lightning
It is heavier and darker, it is unbreakable
Now I’m on my own with no warriors beside me
I will have to enter the waging battle
I will at least try to win for –
I don’t know who for
Perhaps for someone I have yet to meet
For if go into battle for no one I will lose
And I will be lost in the storm
Forever consumed by the black cloud