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I feel like I'm going crazy. Insane by the day.
I been taught god exists and lives within the hearts.
And yet my heart has been divided into 4 parts.
Where were "you"?
When I needed protection from my spirit being broken.
Where were "you"?
When the unspoken words were spoken.
Where were "you"?
When I closed my eyes every night fighting this euphoric nightmare.
Where were "you"?
When my whole soul seems to fall into this "blank stare".
Lord slap me wake me beat me kick me hard use your fist.
Show me you exist. Anoint me, send me a sign like jesuses white dove. Awaiting this unconditional love.
And yet nothing,
Endless disappointment. Left to fend for myself. As fragile material off its Shelf.
Where were "you" when my silent cries become moans of pain.
Where is "you" when "her" voice echoed in my head like schizophrenic "beautiful mind" conversing with itself...I'm going insane.
Where were "you"?
Night after night asking praying pleading for strength to carry on to the next day.
Just to feel a moment of being "okay".
Are you fake or real..?
Is your might as tough as steel? Show me. Show me!
Where are "you"?
Where were "you"?
As I blew the fire out on my 29th candle today, wishing for some clearity.
Where were "you"?
When I asked for forgiveness for loving another other then my wife.
Where were "you"?
Before I devoted myself to this life.
Where were "YOU"?

"He" was a ghost and so was "she".
And niether one heard me plea.