The fire in my heart
Is now one of pain
I watch as the words are burned
And never reach this paper
I search for some eternal truth
And hope that this is not
An isolated torture for me to bare
That I left it all in the moment
With nothing left for me to take home
And give, to you?
I pray for meaning
I pray that pain this great, this strange
Is penance for some great and strange wrong deed I have done
To imagine this was all for nothing
I cannot hold the thought in the palm of my mind for long
Before it is dropped, and falls into my soul
It just wouldn't be fair
But the heart doesn't recognize a thing as fair
Nor the soul, nor Fate
Just what is
To see things with my heart and soul, to look into the eyes of Fate
And see what is
Certainly it must be better than the world I perceive
It might even be, dare I say it, fair
It has to at least be better than this
My life depends on it.