Not So

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Pretending to be stronger than I am,
Was never part of my plan,
It wears me out,
Everything becoming harder than it should be,
Continuously fighting within me,
Scared of but yet wanting to give you all of me,
Scared of but yet wanting all of you,
Yet what do I do,
Pretend to be stronger than I am,
Feeling that no matter what I do,
I will never have all of you,
Being a distant part of your world,
Trying to be your number one,
Yet holding on to a close number two,
Being a distant part of you,
Acting as if your lips on another doesnt bother me,
Is something that eats away at me,
Everything becoming harder than it should be,
Pretending to be stronger than I am,
Is all I know how to be.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Realizing that even the smallest cracks can become the biiggest fissure.

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