My Apology

As the rain falls outside,

So do my hopes,

The hopes of you and me,

I’m sorry for what I did,

I’m sorry for not realizing just how much you mean to me,

And how much I miss you,

I never wanted to let you go,

I never wanted you to call my bluff,

I realize how dark it is without the light of my life,

Baby this shit is killing me inside,

I’m feeling all these emotions at once,

I can't even cry,

All I feel is dark and cold void in the pit of my stomach,

I can't fathom the thought of not hearing you ever saying anything again to me,

Remember that song I sang,

If you just walked away, what could I really say?

And would it matter anyways, would it change how you feel...

All that I can hope for is forgiveness,

Fuck, you don’t know how weird it felt not to get a call from you

And hear you say; hi honey how was your day,

I’m so sorry…I really am,

It’s 2:25 am, and I’m thinking to myself,

What a fucking fool I am,

I’m a dumb man to have let go of a good woman,

And as the rain falls outside,

Now do my tears,

Tears of fear,

Because I’m afraid that I’ve lost you,

And there seems to be nothing that I can do,

Fuck this shit hurts,

I’ve thought about you all day,

Just look at your phone and you’ll see,

All those missed calls… yeah that was me,

Funny aint it,

Babe I miss you,

This is me,

Saying that I miss you and that I’m sorry,

I never meant to push you away,

Or raise my voice, or say anything mean,

I just need to understand you, just like I need you to understand me,

I love you and I miss you…

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