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Well this is something that happened while I was at work one day.  There was this co-worker that was just ticking me off, and she was taking about 6 breaks a shift. I would start at 8am and she started at 10:30am. Well she worked may be an hour and went for her smoke break. She wouldn't tell anyone what so ever, and she would just leave the floor. It ticked the person I was working off, along with myself. I was so fed up cuz it was 2pm and I still had no break and was working, and here is this co-worker who had about 5 before I got the chance to even get a break. Wouldn't that tick you off? To top it off from what I heard she was getting ticked of at me and the other worker, and apparently couldn't stand to work with us for some reason. As well she came around the corner bossing us around and then the supervisor came and bossed me around when I was in the middle of serving a customer and cleaning. Did I mention I was ticked right off???  Well when the one supervisor told me to do something I approached the other co-worker and said: You know what??I should just say **** it and walk off. Then a box broke open when I was trying to move it when organizing a cupboard. Paper bags went all over the floor and I slammed the cupboard door and again swore saying Son of *bleep* Well let me tell ya I can't explain the guilt I feel even now about saying those 2 words.  The thing that bugged me was the other co-worker is the boss' niece and the boss is a christian. The thing that bugs me most is I swore in front of someone I respect. I enjoy this person and I also did not represent being a christian. I let my anger really get to me, and just saying those 2 little words bugs me more than anything else I do wrong. I mean yes other things bug me, but this really bugs me, that I actually swore. What if this niece is a christian? I want to minister to people and help and this is how I act??  Some may figure it's not a big deal "ohhh noooo 2 little swear words, God can handle that!!" Yes God can handle it, but does it mean you're supposed to lose your control and swear just cuz you're mad?? What if you're around a little kid or you're around other christians and you stub your toe?? Just cuz God can handle it grants you the permission to do it?? Sorry if this sounds judgemental, but saying those 2 words just made me get sick. I rarely swear, I mean even when I am hopping mad I do not swear, so why did I at work??  It bugs me more cuz I did it in front of the boss' niece who I really like working with.    I haven't even worked with her long and we work well together.  Well that's what's been on my mind.