Paralyzed

My soul is crying

I am in so much pain

Daggers of sin seem to poke at me

Stabbed over again

I wish this could make sense

Why isn't this ending?

is it my praying?

I keep praying, I feel inlove

yet this sin does not seem to want to budge

I got over everything else

my old ways have gone in the flames

but this sin keeps staying

its the same, sometimes every couple days

It creeps up behind me, and jumps, hey look at me

I am knocking at your heart

heat is building, so much intensity

I try to get rid of this insane desire,that burns within me

I just want to put it in the fire

Addiction has got the best of me

Yet I still feel the Lord near me

I cry when I cave

I cry when I can't seem to save

myself from this insane hurtful disease

it chokes me, it breathes on me

Hey come on enjoy me

for I am the one that brings great feeling

I love your body, I love everything it has

now come on enjoy mine, come on you can

Oh what a high, what a desire

what do you mean you'll land in this fire?

So I sit I listen to this fight

I listen, I sit still in the night

I am on the couch, I once walked away

but tonight buddy lets give in, lets cave

lets crave this sin that feels so good within

I ignore the voice but it doesn't let me go, I give in

I sit here crying, PLEASE LET MY SOUL GO!

I give it to God, I give it to him

but somehow I still feel lost in sin

Please forgive me, please forgive

I love your holy presence

but I still I'm in deep

please help me come to defeat

the fire that burns that may wait for me

unless I begin to change my ways

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Well there is something troubling me and I have been able to walk away a few times! but I still give in. Well here's what I wrote kinda released all of that energy!

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