As I sit here
I keep on caving into the undesirable
I keep caving in to what seems so tangible
I keep on caving into what I feel is a great feeling
Only to find out it’s slowly eating at me
Only to find out it’s spiritually defeating
As guilt sweeps over me
I feel like screaming
I don’t feel much like a winner
I keep hearing voices say you’re a loser
You see reality, yet you keep on dreaming
Dreaming of something that could never be
I just wished these voices would stop
Because I know somehow through Jesus there is victory