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There is a certain romance in the darkness and melancholy. something of the mysterious about that which is hidden and unknown
There is a certain romance in the darkness and melancholy. something mysterious about that which is hidden and unknown
since ancient times, people have worn black to express their grief
poetry about sadness. feeling sad is no crime although the world might wish you to think so. all the feelings in the world never did anybody any harm. It is our feelings that make us human and connect us to the rest of humanity at lest the part of humanity that will let us in
addiction can turn a perfectly healthy individual into a complete mess. There are many things that one can become addicted to. The common denominator is that it can ruin your life. Whether it be gambling, drugs, or some other kind of substance abuse, your life can quickly spin out of control if you aren't careful
My addiction is a woman, one who haunts my dreams every night one of which I can't get out of my mind ,my days are spent with every question a man could ask of oneself ,I love her as much as a mortal man could . I've managed to give up drugs cold turkey and except for a few explicit days such as the 4th of july or new year's eve or nights I can't any longer handle the sorrow and pain there's something unearthly about her .I would die for her but that's not yet been asked of I would do anything for her but once again become a burden on her . When I lost my health and could no longer carry my weight she was left to feed 4 kids on her own .leaving me with wounded pride and anger at the world and yes the war was on I felt she didn't understand me and she felt I didn't understand the pressures she was under .
do I blame her for leaving ? HELL NO!
do I blame myself
a resounding YES !
She is the love of which I'd always dreamed of But it will be a day of which icicles will be hanging 6ft from the rafters of Hell itself before I will ever be a burden to her again If that means I shall die cold and alone at the far edges of the earth with her name being the last word spoken
Then So Be It !
There is a certain romance in the darkness and melancholy. something of the mysterious about that which is hidden and unknown
~ D Donner ~
