My Facade

I put on a facade

what u say does affect me.

I do feel hurt

and my laughs are not genuine.

I don't hate anyone

even though I'd swear on the bible.



I guess I'm not very religious.



I cry in the shower

It's the one place I can be alone.

It's because I really miss you

and I want my best friend back.

I want someone to know me

and I want to know someone.



I guess I'm just misunderstood.



I want to be loved

and I know that I already am.

Something keeps me from feeling it

I want to be loved by you, and only you.

I'm selfish, wanting the world as mine

Everything must be about me.



I guess I'm a brat.



I'm not a bitch

even though I try to be.

I can't put up a good fight

even though I can talk good trash.

I don't want to have enemies

I want peace with everyone.



I guess not everyone wants peace with me.



I'm a flirt and a tease

I lead guys on very well.

I don't intentionally

I just freeze and don't want it anymore.

Only once someone has broke the ice

but I think he hates me now.



I guess the real me wasn't good enough.



I'm not a skank

though some may say so.

I've only loved one guy

and we didn't make love.

I've been used

drug through the dirt.



I guess I'm just a doormat.



I'm extremely intelligent

but I'm dumb when it comes to people.

I'm too trusting

and I want everyone to be trustworthy.

I am quick to judge

and others are quick to judge me.



I guess I should shut my mouth.



I don't really want to hurt anyone

but everyone seems to hurt me.

I just want to be happy

but that will never happen.

I wish I could fly

to the heavens, there I would be happy.



I guess I want to die.



I put on a facade.

this is the real me.

The genuine thing

it's what you see is what you get.

I'm sorry for any wrong I may have done

I only did it out of love, always out of love.



I guess I love too much.

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