Benedict waits
by the pram sheds
in the Square
for Lydia
to come out
of her flat
he wants to take her
to the big bomb site
behind the tabernacle
although she won't
tell her mum
where she's going as such
she'll say to the park
to play on the swings
or slide or other such thing
just as he did
to his mother
the baker rides by
on his horse drawn cart
the horse walking slow
the baker sitting
on top of the cart
nodding his head
still no sign
of Lydia
Benedict sighs
he hates wasting time
likes to be out
and at it
a man with his boxer dog
walks by
the man puffing
a cigarette
hat at the back
of his head
the door opens
and Lydia comes out
in her red and white
checked dress
and white cardigan
she looks stressed
and walks towards Benedict
looking behind her
at the door
of the flat
got out then?
he says
just about
she says
had to help
put the washing
in the copper
and gather up all
the dirty stuff
and take rubbish
to the shoot
and just done
he nods
and says
a girl's work
is never done
as my old man says
well it is for now
she says
where are we going?
she asks
big bomb site
behind the tabernacle
he says
isn't it
dangerous there?
she says
not if you’re careful
and don't let
the Rozzers see you
he says
so they walk
down the slope
and along
Rockingham Street
she talks of her mother
being in a mood
about her father's drinking
and O yes it's all right
for him to booze
and sing
and play the fool
but it's me
who has to feed
you kids
and keep a roof
over your heads
she says
her mother said
Benedict listens
takes in
her straight hair
her thin arms
and legs
her pale features
her mouth opening
and closing
like a fish
in a bowl
they cross over the road
and walk up
and along the street
behind the Trocadero
by the smaller bomb sites
along the narrow alley
and out
on the main road
where they go down
the subway
to get across
to the tabernacle
she still talking
about her mother
and her big sister
and the bloke
she brought home
the other night
and wanted to take him
to the bedroom
for some reason
or other
Lydia adds frowning
the subway echoes
her words
they float
then bounce
off the walls
as they climb the stairs
up and out
she stops
and looks
at the bomb site anxiously
will other kids be there?
she asks
usually are
he says
but that doesn't
matter none
they'll keep to themselves
and we can keep to ours
she bites her lip
and follows him
as they climb
between hoardings
and up and into
the bomb site
with its half standing houses
and ruins
and walls
and houses empty
with no roofs
or roofs
with only three walls
she hesitates
stands with her fingers
in her mouth
want if the Rozzers come?
she says
leave it to me
he says confidently
she follows him
as he climbs
onto a wall
and over the top
come on
he says
she climbs after him
mind you don't
scrape your knees
he says
and helps her
over the wall
holding one
of her hands
she gets up and over
and stands inside
a bombed out house
it stinks
she says
yes probably
some tramps
pissed in here
he says
not still in here
is he?
she says anxiously
no long ago scarpered
he says
he walks through a room
and she walks after him
holding her nose
looking around her
bits of wallpaper hang
from walls
a doorway with no door
a window without glass
that looks out
on an abandoned garden
full of weeds
she follows him up
a riggedy stairway
holding on
to a rocking bannister
and up
to a landing
with three rooms
going off
in each direction
he stands still
taps the floorboards
with his foot
should be safe
he says
is it?
she says nervously
course it is
he says
walking carefully
over the floor
of the room
she stands
by the doorway
what if the floorboards
are rotten
and you fall through?
she says softly
then I get
to the bottom
quicker than I came up
he says smiling
come on
he says
beckoning her over
she stands still
fiddling with her fingers
then she bites her fingers
of one hand
and holds her groin
with the other
it won't give way
he says
she holds herself
it might
she says
then we die together
he says
what away to go eh?
she looks at him
standing there
with his hazel eyes
and quiff of hair
and his hand
held out
towards her
she walks gingerly
over the floorboards
one step
after another
until she reaches
his hand
and grips it tight
and they are there
in the middle
of the room
she feeling
as if she's wet herself
and he like one
who has climbed
Mount Everest
and is about
to plant a flag
with glee
she looks at him
and he looks out
the window
as far
as his hazel eyes
can see.