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Rambling
I wish I hope I pray
That I would be able to say
That I was okay with what just happened
What did I just make happen
I killed the love i had been waiting for
The love of my life plus thousands more
Is no longer mine
Because i can't find
The time
To control myself
Control myself
Around the opposite sex
Cause sex
Raids my mind
And turns on my sex drive
And I just need a release
Need to relieve
My stress
I feel I need to stress
The true seriousness
Of this turmoil I feel I have caused
But wait pause
For a second
So i can try another method
Of punishing myself
I burnish myself
By repeatin my phrases
As if they are praises
To a higher power
I shout it in my head
That I wish I were dead
Or maybe just dying from a stab wound
Yelling " When will you ever learn
You hurt others so much you should burn"
In hell maybe I'll see
That hurting the ones I love eternally
Hurts me
And I'll never outlive the pain
The pain that wraps around my heart
The pain that parted my lips and left me breathless
As did the man of my dreams
It seems
I should know that cheating pulls away at my seams
And makes me fall apart
And I think maybe we could possibly start
Over
But if i were you and you were me
I wouldn't want to be
With me
Either
