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I am what I think others see

I see desperate

I see grotesque

I see something no one could ever want

I see someone that is nothing to me

I see un-importance

I feel I am lied to

I feel I am trapped

I feel I am contradicted

I feel I am useless

I feel I do nothing right

I feel I can't satisfy

I feel I'm always wrong

I feel I have no home

I am what I never wanted to be

I am hopeless

I am mindless

I am stupid

I am bitter

I am reckless

I am such a looser

I am used

I hate me and what I am

I hate what I feel

I hate what I see

I hate the putrid vision of my reflection

I'd gouge out my sight so as not to see the repulsiveness of me

What a dumb cunt I am

Always following the needs

Always needing to know

Always knowing nothing at all

I'm no good

I hurt everyone

Air is wasted at each breath I take

Bringing no one joy

Bringing no one love

Demented rambling slut

Always taking

Taking and draining the life out of them

Killing the spark inside the kids

Killing the connection I have with them

Ranting and raving dysphoric words

Never believing and telling lies

Foul mouthed mother with cold stone eyes

I should kill myself for the world

For my family and my kids

Get this slab of garbage of the earth

And make their agony end.

Just go away and stop this black coal heart