I can’t touch
That – those
Places in his head
Where she left
Her unmistakable mark
The feeling of her
Deep within him
Is so damn thick
I can almost
Reach out and touch it
One might say
I sleep with her
Each and every night
He may hold me
But she thinks for him
I cannot be her replacement
Be his controlling force
Undo all the harm
She has caused him
And his wrong doings
I cannot play puppet master
Telling him how
To think – to live
When to breathe
It all too much
It’s taken me years
To come to where I m
I don’t have
That much time
For a slight hope
Years ago I lost
The ability for
Faith belief hope
That he so requires
To be a real man
I am not Gheppetto
He is not a little boy
I cannot take care
Of anyone that doesn’t know
Who the hell they are
~Chrystal
Written on
March 23, 2009