Love Again

It's real.
I believe.
Severus.
Snape.

He hides behind
a silky, black curtain
of cruelty and
self-importance.

He has no one.
But he has me.
Push everyone away.
No more love.

His only was Lily.
Lovely Lily.
He wants no one.
He lives in the past.

I want him.
I live in my fantasies.
Just one more cut.
It'll take the pain away.

I've been rejected.
I'm not good enough.
If he doesn't want me,
No one wants me.

I can't see the truth.
I'm blindfolded
by a razor
and my seeping blood.

Life's not worth it.
I live in daydreams
to block out
my depression.

He loves me in my fantasy.
He'll die with me
in my fantasy.
I'll die by myself in reality

Let me sleep.
My sleeve soaked in blood,
I went too deep.
This is my reality.

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